Just wanted to come in and say hi, and I hope you are doing well today. As we continue to stay in lockdown to kick this virus, I feel it is important that we have a place to chat. I want to be encouraging in this time. We are going to make it.
We have been through situations before and as whole world we have made it. Yes there are people dying I know that, and I am not trying to lesson the tragedy in any way. I just want us to remember that we have been through rough times as a unit and we will do it again.
The world is one place and while countries may be divided on many things, the one thing we can agree on is we have come through tough times together over and over and we can do it again. I do not care where you are from, I want to be encouraging to you.
If you need someone to talk to, please reach out. Comment on this post, on Facebook reach out on my page Your Happiness Ahead, send a message on messenger or post a comment. Please do not sti alone and be sad. I will talk it out with you.
We are all in this together. I do not want anyone to be sitting at home depressed feeling like no one is there. You are important and I am here. We will beat lockdown together.
About Me
- The Natorette
- Lansing, Michigan, United States
- I am a Mother, a mentor, a business owner, an employee. I am a person I have a busy life and would like to help others deal with their busy lives.
Showing posts with label health. Show all posts
Showing posts with label health. Show all posts
Sunday, April 19, 2020
Monday, May 27, 2019
What is all the Hype About?
So unless you just really ignore the world around you, you have probably heard about CBD oil. It is everywhere right now. The question everyone has is, Does it work?
Yes it does is the answer. I have personally been using it since October of 2018. I had such severe back pain I could not sleep through the night. I would wake up and have to reposition myself every two hours. It was horrible to say the least. I never felt rested and my body could not recharge and heal itself. I was so miserable, it was effecting everything. I had no energy to get things done. I also have anxiety which was getting out of control and that was effecting my ability to function.
I was actually on one of my Facebook pages that has to do with work and a lady mentioned it. I decided to ask some questions. After talking for a bit I decided it couldn't make things any worse. I made a purchase and signed up to sell it at the same time. I am so glad I made the choice to use it.
For the first time in two years I actually slept through the night. I was so shocked when the alarm went off and I had not woken up during the night. After a few days I noticed my pain was not really a thing anymore and I could get through my shift at work without feeling like I had been beat up. I was able to be calmer through out the day as well. It was amazing how much better I was doing using a natural product.
I have begun to tell others about my experience because I want everyone to be able to receive the benefits of this great product. It really is an amazing thing. On a completely unintentional side I have also lost 20m pounds. I have not been able to lose weight for years. This was a great side effect to me.
If you want to know more please visit my web site at cbdwithbecky.com and learn about the different products we have. I encourage you to try one of our sample packs to see how it can help you. You will be amazed at what our products can do for you.
Yes it does is the answer. I have personally been using it since October of 2018. I had such severe back pain I could not sleep through the night. I would wake up and have to reposition myself every two hours. It was horrible to say the least. I never felt rested and my body could not recharge and heal itself. I was so miserable, it was effecting everything. I had no energy to get things done. I also have anxiety which was getting out of control and that was effecting my ability to function.
I was actually on one of my Facebook pages that has to do with work and a lady mentioned it. I decided to ask some questions. After talking for a bit I decided it couldn't make things any worse. I made a purchase and signed up to sell it at the same time. I am so glad I made the choice to use it.
For the first time in two years I actually slept through the night. I was so shocked when the alarm went off and I had not woken up during the night. After a few days I noticed my pain was not really a thing anymore and I could get through my shift at work without feeling like I had been beat up. I was able to be calmer through out the day as well. It was amazing how much better I was doing using a natural product.
I have begun to tell others about my experience because I want everyone to be able to receive the benefits of this great product. It really is an amazing thing. On a completely unintentional side I have also lost 20m pounds. I have not been able to lose weight for years. This was a great side effect to me.
If you want to know more please visit my web site at cbdwithbecky.com and learn about the different products we have. I encourage you to try one of our sample packs to see how it can help you. You will be amazed at what our products can do for you.
Saturday, December 30, 2017
Another Year Ending
So here we are , another year over. I am having mixed feeling really. I am truly over this year. It honestly was one of the crappiest years. I lost my Mom, My daughter's health got worse and so did mine, my mental health has been shaken, and I got terminated from my job.
See why I am very unimpressed with this year? The hard part is it means the last year my Princess is a child. My little girl will turn 18 and then start her Senior year of high school. That makes me sad and also ramps up my anxiety because that means new problems and I am totally unprepared to be the Mom of an adult who I still have to make all the decisions for because her health prevents her from being capable of doing it. She is smart, and works hard. She aspires to become a school teacher. The problem is her seizures make life hard. The truth is my adult child will still have days where she will be more like a 5 year old than an 18 year old.
Totally not her fault and I accept that as her Mom this is absolutely my responsibility. I have just spent 17.5 years making the decisions because she is a child. What happens when I try to help and she says no because she really doesn't know what is happening right then or if I am unable to become her guardian so they will only talk to her and she gets too frustrated to make the right decisions? Being a person with severe anxiety dealing with this has been an extremely difficult task. I am soooo not ready.
As with the years past it does not matter how prepared or unprepared we are it will come. It will bring with it whatever it wants and life will continue. I think of the worst and pray for the best. There will be no stopping it and all we can do is try to make each day count the best we can.
So as you close out these final days, just enjoy them because life is going to happen. It will be messy sometimes and other times it will be great. So my wish for all of you is that, May you have more great days than messy ones.
Thank you for visiting, until next time.
See why I am very unimpressed with this year? The hard part is it means the last year my Princess is a child. My little girl will turn 18 and then start her Senior year of high school. That makes me sad and also ramps up my anxiety because that means new problems and I am totally unprepared to be the Mom of an adult who I still have to make all the decisions for because her health prevents her from being capable of doing it. She is smart, and works hard. She aspires to become a school teacher. The problem is her seizures make life hard. The truth is my adult child will still have days where she will be more like a 5 year old than an 18 year old.
Totally not her fault and I accept that as her Mom this is absolutely my responsibility. I have just spent 17.5 years making the decisions because she is a child. What happens when I try to help and she says no because she really doesn't know what is happening right then or if I am unable to become her guardian so they will only talk to her and she gets too frustrated to make the right decisions? Being a person with severe anxiety dealing with this has been an extremely difficult task. I am soooo not ready.
As with the years past it does not matter how prepared or unprepared we are it will come. It will bring with it whatever it wants and life will continue. I think of the worst and pray for the best. There will be no stopping it and all we can do is try to make each day count the best we can.
So as you close out these final days, just enjoy them because life is going to happen. It will be messy sometimes and other times it will be great. So my wish for all of you is that, May you have more great days than messy ones.
Thank you for visiting, until next time.
Sunday, August 20, 2017
Medical ID Bracelet
Before we get started, Yes I did sign up to get an incentive if someone buys one. It was my choice they did not ask me. I am working on a few projects that I will be telling you about in future posts so I am trying to earn money. Why should we listen or buy this item then, is what you might be asking right now.
Well as many of you know my daughter has seizure disorder. This is a game changer for families who are constantly dealing with medical personnel. It puts medical information right there and takes away the stress of possibly forgetting something in an emergency situation. I am in the process of purchasing mine as well. This way if my daughter ends up at the hospital before I can get there they already have medical information at hand. That is a huge relief as a parent to know my child will get the correct assistance when needed instead of them guessing until I get there.
She will be 18 next year and going to college the next so this is a God send really. She can be a little more independent and I can have piece of mind knowing she will have the information she needs to be taken care of. 
I hope you will at least take a look at the product if you have a loved one with medical concerns. You can buy if you want or not no pressure. I just wanted to share with other people that could use some peace of mind. To check it out click the following link http://lddy.no/odq
Thank you for visiting, until next time.
Well as many of you know my daughter has seizure disorder. This is a game changer for families who are constantly dealing with medical personnel. It puts medical information right there and takes away the stress of possibly forgetting something in an emergency situation. I am in the process of purchasing mine as well. This way if my daughter ends up at the hospital before I can get there they already have medical information at hand. That is a huge relief as a parent to know my child will get the correct assistance when needed instead of them guessing until I get there.
She will be 18 next year and going to college the next so this is a God send really. She can be a little more independent and I can have piece of mind knowing she will have the information she needs to be taken care of. I hope you will at least take a look at the product if you have a loved one with medical concerns. You can buy if you want or not no pressure. I just wanted to share with other people that could use some peace of mind. To check it out click the following link http://lddy.no/odq
Thank you for visiting, until next time.
Sunday, July 24, 2016
How I Got Rid Of My Kidney Stone (read till the end)
So as most of you know I have had a couple of kidney stones. If you know anything about them they are painful and not easy to pass once they are of larger size. My first one was 9 mm and required two different surgeries before it finally came out. After that I thought I was good to go and would just need regular heck ups to make sure I was ok.
This was not the case. I ended up with a 6 mm stone at the beginning of this year. I knew before I even went to the hospital what it was. The pain was horrible. If you have ever given birth then take labor pains and times it by a minimum of ten. After going to the hospital I was given pain meds and told to go to my specialist. By the time I saw him the pain was better so we decided to wait. Then a week later I went back. Not in pain I made the choice to wait. My Dr. told me if I waited much longer I risked damage so surgery was looking like my only option. I was told I would need another CT scan to see what was happening then we could decide from there.
Well for a couple of reasons I won't waste time explaining I didn't get the CT for another month. In that time I decided to do some research on naturals ways to get rid of kidney stones. I read multiple articles and learned of the same basic ingredients people had used with success. Mind you there were a lot of opinions on how to get rid of them and how much of certain things you should eat or drink. Some people swore by methods that were illegal as well. I was not going that route. I decided to use the ingredients that came up the most but do it my way.
For two weeks before the scan I used my remedy in hopes that it would at least shrink the stone enough they would let me wait to pass it. After the scan it was almost a month before I saw the Dr. I went in that day expecting to hear the words surgery. I am not scared of surgery by any means but as a single parent it is hard to find a ride and set up a person to be with my princess in case of a seizure.
The Dr. came in ad to my surprise said I was fine. I didn't need to come back for a whole year. The stone was gone. As the nurse was leaving she asked if I had passed it because she had never heard of some one passing a stone that big on their own. I told her I was just as surprised and told her what I had done. She was very impressed
So here is what you need to get started. Lemons, pure honey, coconut oil, and organic apple cider vinegar. I know seems to easy but it really is. During the day you will make what I call a tea basically. Get a coffee or tea mug and squeeze a half of lemon into the cup. Then put in honey I just put in what looked about a teaspoon. Then add a tablespoon of coconut oil. Then fill with hot water. I used my Kurig. I filled the cup about half full of water put it in the Kurig then did the ingredients and then pushed start. Drink the whole thing. Later in the evening you need a large water bottle. You put a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar in it and fill the rest of the way with water. It taste bad really I will not lie, but it works. Do this for 2 weeks. After that you can do it a couple times a week just to stay flushed out.
Why it works. Here is what I learned. The lemon and apple cider vinegar dissolve the stone over time. The honey act as an antibacterial to keep your tube clean and repair quicker. Stones have sharp edges that shred the tube as it passes. This is where the oil helps it lubricates the tube to help the stone slide easier. So there you have it. I know this was long but hopefully it can help some one else.
This was not the case. I ended up with a 6 mm stone at the beginning of this year. I knew before I even went to the hospital what it was. The pain was horrible. If you have ever given birth then take labor pains and times it by a minimum of ten. After going to the hospital I was given pain meds and told to go to my specialist. By the time I saw him the pain was better so we decided to wait. Then a week later I went back. Not in pain I made the choice to wait. My Dr. told me if I waited much longer I risked damage so surgery was looking like my only option. I was told I would need another CT scan to see what was happening then we could decide from there.
Well for a couple of reasons I won't waste time explaining I didn't get the CT for another month. In that time I decided to do some research on naturals ways to get rid of kidney stones. I read multiple articles and learned of the same basic ingredients people had used with success. Mind you there were a lot of opinions on how to get rid of them and how much of certain things you should eat or drink. Some people swore by methods that were illegal as well. I was not going that route. I decided to use the ingredients that came up the most but do it my way.
For two weeks before the scan I used my remedy in hopes that it would at least shrink the stone enough they would let me wait to pass it. After the scan it was almost a month before I saw the Dr. I went in that day expecting to hear the words surgery. I am not scared of surgery by any means but as a single parent it is hard to find a ride and set up a person to be with my princess in case of a seizure.
The Dr. came in ad to my surprise said I was fine. I didn't need to come back for a whole year. The stone was gone. As the nurse was leaving she asked if I had passed it because she had never heard of some one passing a stone that big on their own. I told her I was just as surprised and told her what I had done. She was very impressed
So here is what you need to get started. Lemons, pure honey, coconut oil, and organic apple cider vinegar. I know seems to easy but it really is. During the day you will make what I call a tea basically. Get a coffee or tea mug and squeeze a half of lemon into the cup. Then put in honey I just put in what looked about a teaspoon. Then add a tablespoon of coconut oil. Then fill with hot water. I used my Kurig. I filled the cup about half full of water put it in the Kurig then did the ingredients and then pushed start. Drink the whole thing. Later in the evening you need a large water bottle. You put a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar in it and fill the rest of the way with water. It taste bad really I will not lie, but it works. Do this for 2 weeks. After that you can do it a couple times a week just to stay flushed out.
Friday, June 24, 2016
Hello
Hey out there. Sorry it has been awhile but so much has gone on lately. It is one thing after another around here. Just when I get one thing done something else seems to pop up. I know life can be crazy but it is just a hot mess right now.
I have my kidney stone but it is just sitting there and I have had two double ear infections and seriously need looked at and I no longer work. You may be thinking well go to the Dr. right? Well that is the next bomb, I was told I make to much money money to get medicaid any longer. Then I was told I would have to buy y own insurance.
Ok so what money am I supposed to use to do that? I mean it is not like you get extra money when you get unemployment. You get less so how is it that when I had a job I was eligible but now I have temporary income and I make to much? So I am now trying to find insurance which I have always gotten from my employer so I have no idea what I am doing.
In an attempt to get more money I decided to cash out part of my 401K and then put some in my in my IRA to build it up some. It seemed like a good idea. I could bump up my checking account and retirement at the same time. Well something happened and they sent the money to my employer instead but I no longer have an account with them so now I have no idea where my money is.
These are just a few of the things that have been going on. It has been interesting to say the least. Hopefully your days are going a little better than mine. :) Next time I hope it will be sooner and I will have something more exciting to talk about.
I have my kidney stone but it is just sitting there and I have had two double ear infections and seriously need looked at and I no longer work. You may be thinking well go to the Dr. right? Well that is the next bomb, I was told I make to much money money to get medicaid any longer. Then I was told I would have to buy y own insurance.
Ok so what money am I supposed to use to do that? I mean it is not like you get extra money when you get unemployment. You get less so how is it that when I had a job I was eligible but now I have temporary income and I make to much? So I am now trying to find insurance which I have always gotten from my employer so I have no idea what I am doing.
In an attempt to get more money I decided to cash out part of my 401K and then put some in my in my IRA to build it up some. It seemed like a good idea. I could bump up my checking account and retirement at the same time. Well something happened and they sent the money to my employer instead but I no longer have an account with them so now I have no idea where my money is.
These are just a few of the things that have been going on. It has been interesting to say the least. Hopefully your days are going a little better than mine. :) Next time I hope it will be sooner and I will have something more exciting to talk about.
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
Something Different
So I am doing something different. I am trying something new for health care. It is called Oil Pulling. It is where you swish oil (coconut is recommended) in your mouth for 20 minutes. It is supposed to help whiten teeth and pull out toxins. I have no idea if it works or not but I figure it can not hurt considering coconut oil is supposed to be healthy any way.
So the idea is to swish a tablespoon of oil around your mouth for 20 minutes. This is a lot of oil and time so I decided on Sunday to do a teaspoon for as long as I could. I tried to melt it a little before hand in the teaspoon but that was not really a good plan it was a drippy so I just put it in my mouth and began to swish.
I do not even think I made it 5 minutes. It was sad really. I have not done it since because it is not part of my routine but plan to do it again tonight. I did notice my teeth felt different after I did it though. I am not sure of any toxin release but there are people that swear by this. I am going to update you as I keep trying it. I think this time I am going to put some in a cup and melt it a little in the microwave because swishing lumpy coconut oil is not fun.
Keep checking back to see how this goes. Plus check out my posts on saving money and paying down debt.
So the idea is to swish a tablespoon of oil around your mouth for 20 minutes. This is a lot of oil and time so I decided on Sunday to do a teaspoon for as long as I could. I tried to melt it a little before hand in the teaspoon but that was not really a good plan it was a drippy so I just put it in my mouth and began to swish.
I do not even think I made it 5 minutes. It was sad really. I have not done it since because it is not part of my routine but plan to do it again tonight. I did notice my teeth felt different after I did it though. I am not sure of any toxin release but there are people that swear by this. I am going to update you as I keep trying it. I think this time I am going to put some in a cup and melt it a little in the microwave because swishing lumpy coconut oil is not fun.
Keep checking back to see how this goes. Plus check out my posts on saving money and paying down debt.
Friday, May 13, 2016
Getting to Savings
So I hope you are doing well with your savings and paying down your debt. Even after not having a regular 9-5 job I am still making sure to work on my bills and putting a little away. It is not as much as I used to do to the circumstances but I have not given up.
I have stayed dedicated to using my surveys and other income earning opportunities. I just finished buying more medical stuff for my daughter using the points I had and I am on my way to getting her the birthday gifts for her sweet 16. I am so excited to realize I have more in the bank now than when I worked a regular job every day. I knew as a kid I was meant for something different but as I have grown and had a child I felt like I needed to fit into the mainstream world. After the recent events it just confirmed that I am not meant for a typical job.
As I am looking for my great idea, I continue to use the extra income so it does not get eaten up in a month. Been there done that and it is not fun. So I have given you a few of my favorites so far and now her come a couple more. These take a little longer to add up but it does add up and you can use them simultaneously so between the 2 of them you can cash out $60. It may not seem like a lot but when added to the other earnings it can make a difference. I just used one to buy my daughters expensive vitamins.
You open emails, watch videos, and can take surveys. The first one is Inbox Dollars (http://www.inboxdollars.com/?r=ref17133614&s=7). The next one is Send Earnings (http://www.sendearnings.com/?r=ref4476777&s=7). Each email is $.02, videos depend on the video, and surveys vary as well. It will not make you rich but again it adds up. Each cash out is $30 so again the two together mean an extra $60. Who couldn't use an extra $60.
Ok time to go make some money. No excuses. My daughter was in the ER and I knew it would be awhile so I took my laptop and while she watched TV or was getting a test done and the Dr's were not there, I worked on making money. Remember Instagc that I told you about in the previous post's? Yeah I have made over $100 this year just using that. It doesn't include the other sites at all.
We are on this journey together and we will make it. Share your stories, ask questions we are here for eachother.
I have stayed dedicated to using my surveys and other income earning opportunities. I just finished buying more medical stuff for my daughter using the points I had and I am on my way to getting her the birthday gifts for her sweet 16. I am so excited to realize I have more in the bank now than when I worked a regular job every day. I knew as a kid I was meant for something different but as I have grown and had a child I felt like I needed to fit into the mainstream world. After the recent events it just confirmed that I am not meant for a typical job.
As I am looking for my great idea, I continue to use the extra income so it does not get eaten up in a month. Been there done that and it is not fun. So I have given you a few of my favorites so far and now her come a couple more. These take a little longer to add up but it does add up and you can use them simultaneously so between the 2 of them you can cash out $60. It may not seem like a lot but when added to the other earnings it can make a difference. I just used one to buy my daughters expensive vitamins.
You open emails, watch videos, and can take surveys. The first one is Inbox Dollars (http://www.inboxdollars.com/?r=ref17133614&s=7). The next one is Send Earnings (http://www.sendearnings.com/?r=ref4476777&s=7). Each email is $.02, videos depend on the video, and surveys vary as well. It will not make you rich but again it adds up. Each cash out is $30 so again the two together mean an extra $60. Who couldn't use an extra $60.
Ok time to go make some money. No excuses. My daughter was in the ER and I knew it would be awhile so I took my laptop and while she watched TV or was getting a test done and the Dr's were not there, I worked on making money. Remember Instagc that I told you about in the previous post's? Yeah I have made over $100 this year just using that. It doesn't include the other sites at all.
We are on this journey together and we will make it. Share your stories, ask questions we are here for eachother.
Wednesday, May 11, 2016
Just Talking
So things have been a little crazy. I have my kidney stone and I am trying to avoid surgical removal but my Dr. is starting to push it. My daughter was very sick over the weekend and then missed three days of school with it being so close to the end. I am working with her to try to get her grades to where they should be but it is hard when she is sick a lot between migraines, seizures, and regular illness. Her grades are not that bad all things considered but I know she wants to do better, and I know she absolutely can.
At least I am home right now so that has been extra helpful during this time. I am really working on ideas to stay home permanently. I have already researched insurance for individuals so that I know what it will cost each month to insure us on my own. Now it is time to start putting my skills to use and seeing what can pull off. There are plenty of people who have figured out how to make money at home and still pay bills and such. If they can I am determined to figure it out for myself.
My next post will have some more helpful hints on how to earn some extra money. I have been doing very well. I just bought my daughter some more of her medical stuff she needed and didn't pay a cent and her party is pretty much covered other than the actual day of and a hoop skirt for the dress. I have actually never had this much money in my accounts at once other than tax time. I have been doing my best to save money as much as I can. I did spend some more money on a couple of my credit cards but it was for a gift and my house, but I have only used them about 3 times in the month and a half that I have been home.
Our journey together is one that will take some time but in the end will be worth it. If you have any success stories I would love to hear them.
At least I am home right now so that has been extra helpful during this time. I am really working on ideas to stay home permanently. I have already researched insurance for individuals so that I know what it will cost each month to insure us on my own. Now it is time to start putting my skills to use and seeing what can pull off. There are plenty of people who have figured out how to make money at home and still pay bills and such. If they can I am determined to figure it out for myself.
My next post will have some more helpful hints on how to earn some extra money. I have been doing very well. I just bought my daughter some more of her medical stuff she needed and didn't pay a cent and her party is pretty much covered other than the actual day of and a hoop skirt for the dress. I have actually never had this much money in my accounts at once other than tax time. I have been doing my best to save money as much as I can. I did spend some more money on a couple of my credit cards but it was for a gift and my house, but I have only used them about 3 times in the month and a half that I have been home.
Our journey together is one that will take some time but in the end will be worth it. If you have any success stories I would love to hear them.
Sunday, May 1, 2016
Health Update
So Friday I went to the ER and found out I had another kidney stone. I had symptoms for a few days but I am bad about getting checked out. I always put other things ahead of my pain. I know that I should listen to my body more but I just have things to do so if it isn't too bad I just keep going. Well on Thursday night my body was really letting me know it had enough and by Friday morning it was telling me it was time to go, so after the water heater repair people finished I went in.
This is the second time I have had one and it is the worst. It is the only thing I have found that beat childbirth and that is painful enough. Although when you understand what is happening with a kidney stone you realize it is about the same principle of pushing a watermelon out a hole the size of a pea. If you have never had to go through either of these there is really no way for you to understand this type of pain. If you have done one or the other then you know the pain I am talking about. If you are like me and have done both, well you deserve and award.
They gave me meds to help and decided this time it is small enough that they hope it will pass on its own. While I am not looking forward to passing it I am hoping it does because I do not want to do surgery again. The last one I had was so big that even after placing a stint it still would not pass so they had to surgically break it up so it could come out. That was not fun and I have had lower back pain every morning in that spot since.
I go see the dr. for a check up in the morning and hopefully it will be good news. I am hoping they tell me it is passing along well and should be out in a few more days. Unfortunately between the meds and pain there was not enough energy to make posts so I am hoping to get caught back up soon.
Keep up the good work on paying down the debt and building your savings. You are doing great because you are trying. We are in this together.
This is the second time I have had one and it is the worst. It is the only thing I have found that beat childbirth and that is painful enough. Although when you understand what is happening with a kidney stone you realize it is about the same principle of pushing a watermelon out a hole the size of a pea. If you have never had to go through either of these there is really no way for you to understand this type of pain. If you have done one or the other then you know the pain I am talking about. If you are like me and have done both, well you deserve and award.
They gave me meds to help and decided this time it is small enough that they hope it will pass on its own. While I am not looking forward to passing it I am hoping it does because I do not want to do surgery again. The last one I had was so big that even after placing a stint it still would not pass so they had to surgically break it up so it could come out. That was not fun and I have had lower back pain every morning in that spot since.
I go see the dr. for a check up in the morning and hopefully it will be good news. I am hoping they tell me it is passing along well and should be out in a few more days. Unfortunately between the meds and pain there was not enough energy to make posts so I am hoping to get caught back up soon.
Keep up the good work on paying down the debt and building your savings. You are doing great because you are trying. We are in this together.
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
Sorry I went Missing
I just wanted to say sorry for not posting in so long. I need to get back to our debt reduction series. I hope you are doing well and have been able to save some money and pay down some bills. I have so much to go over that has happened lately.
To start I am working at home. With my daughter's health and her needing me more I have taken the step of being home more often now. It has been a little challenging getting started but by the grace of God I know I am going to figure this out. It will get easier as I get more used to the idea.
I am not losing weight like I had hoped and I have been in a lot of pain so I am back to the Dr. next week. I know I need to get this figured out but I a a little worried about what they are going to say is wrong. Hopefully it is not something that is going to be drastic to fix.
Well those are the big changes as of right now. I am still saving and paying bills although my income is not as big right now but I know it will pick up in the future. I just have to get the hang of what I am doing but a lot of my friends are working from home now so I know I can do it if they can. I will be back soon.
We are on this journey together and I happy you are here.
To start I am working at home. With my daughter's health and her needing me more I have taken the step of being home more often now. It has been a little challenging getting started but by the grace of God I know I am going to figure this out. It will get easier as I get more used to the idea.
I am not losing weight like I had hoped and I have been in a lot of pain so I am back to the Dr. next week. I know I need to get this figured out but I a a little worried about what they are going to say is wrong. Hopefully it is not something that is going to be drastic to fix.
Well those are the big changes as of right now. I am still saving and paying bills although my income is not as big right now but I know it will pick up in the future. I just have to get the hang of what I am doing but a lot of my friends are working from home now so I know I can do it if they can. I will be back soon.
We are on this journey together and I happy you are here.
Wednesday, January 6, 2016
Slightly Rough Day
So as some of you know my daughter suffers from neurological issues. Most days are ok with a little confusion over small things. She does her best to go to school as much as possible and tries to be positive as much as she can. She is always worried about her friends and would do anything to help anyone. She is my special princess.
Today was not a usual day. She missed almost the whole school day and finals are in two weeks so that is tough. She basically had short term memory loss for the whole day. It was 9 pm and she still thought it was dinner time. It is a little scary right now but I am still working to stay positive. I know God is with us during this time, I just wish that made me feel better about going to sleep. Tomorrow could be a completely normal day or this could be the beginning of a tough week,
I think it would be easier to handle if I had more answers. They can't tell me why she has seizures and migraines all the time. They can't tell me if she will grow out of it or if we even have the right meds yet. That is the hardest part for me. I want to know what is going on and how I can help but I don't and I can't.
I want to help my princess but there is nothing I can do to make it better. I just have to sit back and watch as she suffers and I can't do anything for her. She depends on me to keep her safe and I can't against this particular situation.
Today was not a usual day. She missed almost the whole school day and finals are in two weeks so that is tough. She basically had short term memory loss for the whole day. It was 9 pm and she still thought it was dinner time. It is a little scary right now but I am still working to stay positive. I know God is with us during this time, I just wish that made me feel better about going to sleep. Tomorrow could be a completely normal day or this could be the beginning of a tough week,
I think it would be easier to handle if I had more answers. They can't tell me why she has seizures and migraines all the time. They can't tell me if she will grow out of it or if we even have the right meds yet. That is the hardest part for me. I want to know what is going on and how I can help but I don't and I can't.
I want to help my princess but there is nothing I can do to make it better. I just have to sit back and watch as she suffers and I can't do anything for her. She depends on me to keep her safe and I can't against this particular situation.
Thursday, October 15, 2015
Down With The Pounds
So I am down 5 more pounds. I am working on eating out less to start. I got a little side tracked and was eating out a little too much. I have continued to have my smoothies with the protein powder. I really like buying the frozen fruit at #Target. It is very tasty and makes things very simple. I have the #Nutribullet and I just put in the fruit and powder and blend it in the to go cup and drink it at work.
I have not started back to the gym yet. I really need to go but I have napping way to much again. That is a big down fall of mine. Over the years I have been napping so much it is crazy. I take my daughter to school then come sleep until the last minute before work. Sooo not healthy. Today I decided to stay awake. Napping is a hard habit to break when you have been doing it for like 9 years now.
So what is your favorite way to spend your extra morning time? What do you get done before leaving to work? I will have an extra hour after I go to the gym when I start o I want some ideas of things I can accomplish with my extra time before I have to get ready to go.
I have not started back to the gym yet. I really need to go but I have napping way to much again. That is a big down fall of mine. Over the years I have been napping so much it is crazy. I take my daughter to school then come sleep until the last minute before work. Sooo not healthy. Today I decided to stay awake. Napping is a hard habit to break when you have been doing it for like 9 years now.
So what is your favorite way to spend your extra morning time? What do you get done before leaving to work? I will have an extra hour after I go to the gym when I start o I want some ideas of things I can accomplish with my extra time before I have to get ready to go.
Friday, October 9, 2015
Weight Update
So I am down 5 pounds. It is not a ton but it is a start. I have continued to use the smoothies with the protein powder. I have tried not to eat fast food as much and keep the sugary drinks low. I will never completely cut out #coke but I do try to not over do it either. My goal is no more than one a day but some times I have more than that and it is ok too. I will be attempting to go back to the gym starting Monday however I have been in quite a bit of pain so we shall see how that starts out.
I am not trying to starve myself nor deprive myself. I am just trying to be a healthier me and a more confident me. You do not have to be a size 2 in order to be happy. If you are being healthy and you are you are happy at a size 10 then that is fine too. It is all about how you feel about yourself and if you are happy. Now I am not promoting being 300 pounds and thinking that is fine but I am not saying you have to be a twig either. If what you are doing is making you unhealthy or unhappy then you should fix it. You do not want to die at 35 because you loved cheeseburgers too much but having them now and then is not the end of the world
I will continue my journey until I am happy with the results. I am not sure what size that will make me. I do know that what ever size I end up it will be what I am happy with and not a number that some chart has labeled me as needing to be.
I am not trying to starve myself nor deprive myself. I am just trying to be a healthier me and a more confident me. You do not have to be a size 2 in order to be happy. If you are being healthy and you are you are happy at a size 10 then that is fine too. It is all about how you feel about yourself and if you are happy. Now I am not promoting being 300 pounds and thinking that is fine but I am not saying you have to be a twig either. If what you are doing is making you unhealthy or unhappy then you should fix it. You do not want to die at 35 because you loved cheeseburgers too much but having them now and then is not the end of the world
I will continue my journey until I am happy with the results. I am not sure what size that will make me. I do know that what ever size I end up it will be what I am happy with and not a number that some chart has labeled me as needing to be.
Friday, October 2, 2015
On To Healthier things
Awhile back I was going to take you on my journey of weight loss. Unfortunately things did not work out the way I planned. I was not on a good schedule and such. Well I am going to get started again. To update everyone I am no longer pregnant so I can start this journey again. I will be honest so others can feel more secure in doing this as well.
I am starting out at 199 pounds. This is quite big for me since I am only about 5 foot. I gather all my fat in my mid section so it looks very odd. I used to weigh about 104 pounds so I went up quite a bit obviously. I hope you will join me in this if nothing else just to be a healthier you. The whole goal is to be healthy. I will tal about numbers but the real goal is to think more about our bodies.
My first effort is my morning smoothie. I have a #Nutribullet and I use frozen fruit for the most part. I do add bananas and apples at times as well. I then add some protein powder and then blend it and take it to work with me. I need to add exercise so I have a gym membership and intend to start going starting on Monday. Lets do this together. It is better when you have motivation and a group to do it with. The more support we all have the better we will do.
#letsgetmoving
I am starting out at 199 pounds. This is quite big for me since I am only about 5 foot. I gather all my fat in my mid section so it looks very odd. I used to weigh about 104 pounds so I went up quite a bit obviously. I hope you will join me in this if nothing else just to be a healthier you. The whole goal is to be healthy. I will tal about numbers but the real goal is to think more about our bodies.
My first effort is my morning smoothie. I have a #Nutribullet and I use frozen fruit for the most part. I do add bananas and apples at times as well. I then add some protein powder and then blend it and take it to work with me. I need to add exercise so I have a gym membership and intend to start going starting on Monday. Lets do this together. It is better when you have motivation and a group to do it with. The more support we all have the better we will do.
#letsgetmoving
Monday, September 28, 2015
New Decisions
So after a long weekend and a lot of emotions I am trying to make a change. I have decided I need to make some serious changes to my life. I have had so many emotional things happen and I have been let down by so many. I realized this weekend that I have given so much of myself to make others happy without worrying about the consequences it would have on me. I have put them above my own mental and physical health. It is time to stop this cycle.
It is ok to help people and consider how your actions will affect others, but at the end of the day you have to make sure you and your family are taken care of. If you let yourself bottle everything up then eventually you will finally break. This is what happened to me over the weekend. I realized how many people have used me for their benefit and then when I was no longer needed they dropped me. I was to trusting that they cared as much as I did but I was wrong.
The problem is my heart is too open. I am not saying be closed off completely but you really have to know the people you let in your circle. Make sure the people you invest your time in are investing their time back into you. Even a little bit. They may never be able to give as much as you for whatever reason, but make sure they are giving back and not just taking. If you are the only one giving in a relationship then it might be time to re-evaluate things between you.
I want everyone to live an emotionally healthy life. Please just keep an eye on who you are letting in your life. Make sure they are making you as happy as you make them. Life is give and take. Please take the time to love and live to the fullest.
It is ok to help people and consider how your actions will affect others, but at the end of the day you have to make sure you and your family are taken care of. If you let yourself bottle everything up then eventually you will finally break. This is what happened to me over the weekend. I realized how many people have used me for their benefit and then when I was no longer needed they dropped me. I was to trusting that they cared as much as I did but I was wrong.
The problem is my heart is too open. I am not saying be closed off completely but you really have to know the people you let in your circle. Make sure the people you invest your time in are investing their time back into you. Even a little bit. They may never be able to give as much as you for whatever reason, but make sure they are giving back and not just taking. If you are the only one giving in a relationship then it might be time to re-evaluate things between you.
I want everyone to live an emotionally healthy life. Please just keep an eye on who you are letting in your life. Make sure they are making you as happy as you make them. Life is give and take. Please take the time to love and live to the fullest.
Sunday, September 27, 2015
Moving Forwrd
So I have been writing about my pregnancy lately. It was crazy to find out in the first place and then to find out it is in jeopardy. I have had to sit and think about my options as it pertains to every one. I have severe health issues and do I want to go all the rest of the months for nothing. I can barely take care of my daughter that already has health issues and there are many months to go.
I have an appointment on Tuesday and I am going to discuss ending the pregnancy. I know that this is a very controversial issue and many people will be offended by my decision. I must say I never thought I would ever even think about doing it, but here I am faced with a million uncertainties and a child that is 15 and quite often still needs my help to shower. I know that I may lose readers and people might even leave nasty comments.
I understand where those people are coming from I really do. I know what I am saying and I know what it means if I go through with it. It is going to be very painful and emotional and I will have to live with the decision for the rest of my life. Let me just say that it has not been easy to think about. I have had to think about all the pros and cons for the last month now. It is really hard to even think about. The alternative is just as hard. I may have to watch my child suffer because I can,t help her or know that I am going to go full term for nothing or have another child that needs full attention.
How do I say one child needs me more than the other. How do I decide which one is more important than the other? Do I leave one suffering while I help the other in distress? What if they are both in distress at the same time? There are so many factors to consider. There is also my health to consider. If I am too sick to do anything then who takes care of them? If I go full term and my health gets so bad do I recover? What about my daughter who is here how can I be 100% for her?
I understand people will be mad. Though as I have pointed out it is not always about just ending things. There are many reasons why I am leaning toward this decision. It isn't always about finances or just using it for birth control. Some women have real reasons they may have to make this choice. I am sure people are going to have an opinion but at the end of the day it is about what is best for everyone.
I have an appointment on Tuesday and I am going to discuss ending the pregnancy. I know that this is a very controversial issue and many people will be offended by my decision. I must say I never thought I would ever even think about doing it, but here I am faced with a million uncertainties and a child that is 15 and quite often still needs my help to shower. I know that I may lose readers and people might even leave nasty comments.
I understand where those people are coming from I really do. I know what I am saying and I know what it means if I go through with it. It is going to be very painful and emotional and I will have to live with the decision for the rest of my life. Let me just say that it has not been easy to think about. I have had to think about all the pros and cons for the last month now. It is really hard to even think about. The alternative is just as hard. I may have to watch my child suffer because I can,t help her or know that I am going to go full term for nothing or have another child that needs full attention.
How do I say one child needs me more than the other. How do I decide which one is more important than the other? Do I leave one suffering while I help the other in distress? What if they are both in distress at the same time? There are so many factors to consider. There is also my health to consider. If I am too sick to do anything then who takes care of them? If I go full term and my health gets so bad do I recover? What about my daughter who is here how can I be 100% for her?
I understand people will be mad. Though as I have pointed out it is not always about just ending things. There are many reasons why I am leaning toward this decision. It isn't always about finances or just using it for birth control. Some women have real reasons they may have to make this choice. I am sure people are going to have an opinion but at the end of the day it is about what is best for everyone.
Wednesday, September 23, 2015
Sad News
This will probably be a short post but wanted to share. I was trying to share being pregnant and be honest about my experience. Well the sad truth is it does not look good and I will probably not be able to continue.
I have not known for even a month so that lessons the blow a little but it is still hard to think about all the same. As I am single and older I will not have another opportunity for this experience again. It is hard to process that idea. I do however have a beautiful 15 year old daughter and I will continue to be the best mom to her that I know how and that will never change
I have not known for even a month so that lessons the blow a little but it is still hard to think about all the same. As I am single and older I will not have another opportunity for this experience again. It is hard to process that idea. I do however have a beautiful 15 year old daughter and I will continue to be the best mom to her that I know how and that will never change
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
Another Day of Testing
So as we have been discussing pregnancy in honest detail today took a crazy turn. They still do not have answers for me about the extra stuff that is going on. I feel awful all the time. This is not all sparkles and rainbows at all. The testing sucks a whole lot. Blood draws and urine tests then they were pushing on my ovaries which are what started the testing that found the baby. I wanted to crawl off the exam table.
Then I have to make amends with the fact that this pregnancy might not last any way due to other factors and health reasons. That was weird to hear really. I am older and things get more complicated and then there is the fact of health and everything that I am already prone to issues with.
I have only known for about a week now so it really hasn't affected me either way to be completely honest. The dad has said he will be supportive no matter what happens. He is by my side figuratively speaking as much as I need him. He has been great for an ear everyday so that has been nice. My daughter's father made me as miserable as possible during my whole pregnancy. Having some one to just listen to my frustration is more helpful than you can imagine.
For some this all might be too honest. I think it is only fair that we can really discuss the reality of the situation. Not all pregnancies are the same. Not everyone has the same support system that is super supportive and there every second. Not everyone has the easiest most pleasant experience either. I apologize if it is too honest but I think it is fair to everyone to get all the details in an honest fashion.
Then I have to make amends with the fact that this pregnancy might not last any way due to other factors and health reasons. That was weird to hear really. I am older and things get more complicated and then there is the fact of health and everything that I am already prone to issues with.
I have only known for about a week now so it really hasn't affected me either way to be completely honest. The dad has said he will be supportive no matter what happens. He is by my side figuratively speaking as much as I need him. He has been great for an ear everyday so that has been nice. My daughter's father made me as miserable as possible during my whole pregnancy. Having some one to just listen to my frustration is more helpful than you can imagine.
For some this all might be too honest. I think it is only fair that we can really discuss the reality of the situation. Not all pregnancies are the same. Not everyone has the same support system that is super supportive and there every second. Not everyone has the easiest most pleasant experience either. I apologize if it is too honest but I think it is fair to everyone to get all the details in an honest fashion.
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
And It Just Keeps Coming
I have decided to focus on real talk about this pregnancy. People are always talking about how great it is to be pregnant. Well some times it is not and I think we should be able to talk about those things too.
So as much trouble as I am already having with this whole pregnancy thing, now I found out that all the medical stuff that was tested when this was discovered was messed up. They contradicted each other and now I have no idea what else is wrong with me.
I have come to understand that I may not even stay pregnant. I may have to give up the idea due to, too many other complications going on. I have to make choices based on the facts and since I already have a child here that I need to take care of. She has medical things that require extra attention.
I have so many emotions right now. Confusion is the biggest. I am not really attached but I feel guilty about choices being made. I worry about my daughter but she seems to not be fully interested either so I probably don't have to worry about her but I do. I have talked to the father and he says he will still be there emotionally for me no matter what happens. That is helpful at least, even if that is all he can offer right now I will take.
My body is having so many problems it is unreal. I am not quite 4 months but I already feel like I am due now. I am miserable and if I go to term I will be in so much pain it will be unreal.
So as much trouble as I am already having with this whole pregnancy thing, now I found out that all the medical stuff that was tested when this was discovered was messed up. They contradicted each other and now I have no idea what else is wrong with me.
I have come to understand that I may not even stay pregnant. I may have to give up the idea due to, too many other complications going on. I have to make choices based on the facts and since I already have a child here that I need to take care of. She has medical things that require extra attention.
I have so many emotions right now. Confusion is the biggest. I am not really attached but I feel guilty about choices being made. I worry about my daughter but she seems to not be fully interested either so I probably don't have to worry about her but I do. I have talked to the father and he says he will still be there emotionally for me no matter what happens. That is helpful at least, even if that is all he can offer right now I will take.
My body is having so many problems it is unreal. I am not quite 4 months but I already feel like I am due now. I am miserable and if I go to term I will be in so much pain it will be unreal.
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