They can be very scary and draining. Things can go wrong or like me you may have no clue that this is still possible so it is total shock. Why do we have to pretend that it is all wonderful if that is not how we feel. People keep saying that I will be more into it when it gets closer. Well what if I am not? This is a real concern of mine, What if my older daughter doesn't connect with it.
There are just so many things running in my brain. Doing it alone is much harder than the first time. I thought I would be ok but the truth is I am petrified and that is my reality.