A Week Of Trying To Get It Together

So for the last week I have been trying to get a hold of myself. I am so tired again and the headaches and bodyaches are everyday now. It is a constant struggle to deal with everyday things. Just getting out of bed in the first place is a challange. The whole being positive aspect of this year has proven to be very difficult with all the situations that have presented themselves. Each one needing it's own manual to deal with it.

Stress is a key trigger to making Chronic Fatigue worse or flare up. This year has proven to be more stressful than others. I actually divorced my first husband over 11 years ago and went through hell dealing with him and being a single Mother for about the first 3 years of my daughters life and some times, I look back and think if I got through all of that why is this so hard?

Do you ever find yourself in that situation? You went through one thing in life and it seems like it should have been hard but you breeze3d right through it, then something happens later that you think should be easy and it feels like you will never make it? I wonder if maybe that is why these situations do seem more exausting than before. I breezed through the tough stuff so I thought the worst was over and then a bunch of small stuff hits and it is like, UUUGGGGGG I thought I already did my hard part of life. Maybe that could be it. You just get older and have no patience for things anymore and just want things to go a certain way in a certain order and when they don't it just makes you super irratated.

I think the hardest part is all the health stuff that is going on. I have stuff that needs to be figured out, my daughter is being re-evauluated for her medical issues and I am worried of the results, my husband has medical tests going on right now. It is a lot when the whole family has there own set of medical problems that are all different and all need different people to treat them. My insurance also decided I didn't need one of my medications anymore so that has made a change for me as well. I have to do another test to see what medication will work now. It will have been a month since I have had my medication once the test is done. You would think the doctors would know better than the insurance company but what can you do.

In Need Of Medical Attention

So I have been trying all these different things to try to be healthier and keep my system cleaned out. Things were going well and I was preparing to move ahead with the ramped up exercise part. Then I got really tired again for some reason so I slowed back down and took it easy, hence the 24 hours of sleep over just this last weekend. I thought things would be fine.

Then something wierd started yesterday and seems to be continueing through today but getting worse. I thought I was having some sort of severe breakout due to the detoxing like my face had started detoxing and now my pores were unclogging so I was getting a bunch of small pimples or something. Then hen as today went on I noticed that it is worse and now my face feels dry and slightly itchy. I have no idea what this is. It is around my eyes, on my eyelid, and on my neck right under my jaw bone.

I am slightly concerned now. I put some lotion on in hopes to make it feel less dry but it didn't help long. Then I decided to check Web MD since it was 9.30 at night. That only made it worse. Out of the top 3 possibilities 2 were types of cancers and the other was shingles. All which are no fun and can be deadly. I decided I didn't like thier diagnosis. So I need my blood drawn anyway so it looks like I might have to make a special trip to the Dr. tomorrow. I just don't know how I go about this. Like Hey can you feel my face something is wrong with it. It wasn't there Saturday and it is even worse now than yesterday. That just seems a little strange. I have thought about washing my face again but I worry if I wash it too much then that will make it worse. Such a dilema. My luck I would wash it again, it would get better so I would skip the visit and then my night time it would be back.

I am still working on getting my fashion career going but I have hit a few bumps so I am working on smoothing those out. I am hoping by next year I will have a small line going that will be making a little bit of money. I hope this is nothing serious that will get in the way of that. I really do not want to have to take off time from my drawings and getting them made.

Well it is late hereand I am again tired. It is time for my meds and sleep. Hopefully in the morning this will be better and I will not have to worry about it again.

Lazy Weekend

So this was a very lazy weekend. I slept a lot and didn't really do much of anything at all. I think this is one the times I have been the most tired. I slept 14 hours on Saturday and 10 today. I need to find some energy some where.

I have a ton of stuff I need to get done and sleeping all the time is not going to get me anywhere. I actually run 3 Facebook pages right now, plus being a Mom, and my house work. We are getting ready to move so that is a pain. It is not easy to do when you are so tired all the time. I am hoping this week will be better though. I have more to do since I am going to be helping my daughters school for a few days so I will have that on top of the rest of the stuff I do.

We will be moving in about 6 weeks so it is going to be very busy for us. It is also going to be a big change. We are moving back home but we are moving back to my parents house since my house is being rented. My parents house is very old so it does not have any of the updates that the house we rent now does. We will have to get used to one bathroom agian, no dishwasher, thier house does not even have central air so it will be very different. They have a very small washing machine that hooks up to the sink there is no laundry room. It will be very interesting to be back. I am hoping that a little down the road I might be able to buy them an updated house for thier property.

I also have to find a job when I get home. I am not excited about this. I had a job while I was here but only for a few months so it has been 4 years since I worked a real full time job. I have gotten used to spending time with my daughter and doing things when I want. Then I am goingto have to get back on a schedule of planning around my work hours. It makes me sad as well because she is about to hit her teen years so it is less likely we will have as much time to spend together since she will get busier and such.

So much to think about right now. It is very hard when you are so tired though. Plus I keep getting headaches so that is not helping either. I am hoping I can pull off the packing by the end of June. We shall see

The return of thought

So it has been a very long time since I have posted. I have had so much going on that by the end of the night I just go to bed and try to get as many hours of sleep as I can. This is usually 4-5 hours if I am lucky. I have my Facebook business and I am getting ready to move again. My daughter is in different programs that we are getting ready for the end of year activities and she is preparing for the end of year testing at school. It is really busy. I am also trying to start my own business which is quite hard at the moment. Finding the right people to get work done can be complicated. My great year has had some up and downs but is working out right now. I am keeping my faith and working on improving me. I do still have times where I get down but I always seem to come back up the next day or so. I have big plans for the rest of this year and next year as well. I am going to try to get back to posting regular again so I hope that you will return to view my posts and follow me on my journey.

An Update On Things

So things go up and down. Right now I am doing ok. My weight mission is on hold because of some severe joint pain I have been experiencing. The good news is I have a doctor that is listening so I got some medication to help the pain. The bad news is the side effects have been not so great.

The meds make me very tired. The problem is that I was already having trouble with being tired so this is making it worse. I have gone to sleep when my daughter went to school and slept until she got home. Not good when you are trying to accomplish other goals. Also in the last two days it has been causing sever stomach upset. I am hoping that these are just temporary because the pain relief is so great right now.

I am starting to build more confidence in my fashion career. More signs keep pointing to just going ahead and doing it. I have had a lot of people send me information about their manufacturing company but I just do not know which to choose. That is one thing that is holding me back. I am however coming up with a lot of ideas and would atleast like to send in one for a sample to see how it would go if i did it.

I finally replaced my printer so I am hoping that I can get more stuff done that has been lacking because of not having one for so long. After my laptop was stolen my printer quit working. Well I finally got my own laptop again and now I have replaced the printer so I am up and running again. Now I need to focus on what needs to get done.

I really have to get focused on school as well. I can not fail a class again. It is just not going to be good if it happens. I am frustrated because there are other things going on right now as well and I want to take care of those as well but this is important to me also and proving to my daughter I can do it.

That is really my update for now I am just trying to get everything back to normal right now even in the midst of the caos. I hope everyone else is doing well. Update me send a responce.

Getting Healthier

So I have been working to get healthier. There are a ton of rules and tips out there. I mean everyone has an opinion on what you should eat, drink or even the pills you should take. It can be a little overwhelming when you try to get started. I mean I have even seen articles that completely contradict the exercises I have always known. It can make a person not even want to deal with it at all.

Here are some easy steps that I have found to get me started and they are not difficult at all. I still eat what I want right now and drink what I want I have just made a few changes to get started and I plan on making more as I progress. I figure easing itno it is much better thatn trying to do everything cold turkey. That is usually when I fail. A great free website to help you keep track of what you are doing each day so you can track your progress is sparkpeople.com. They even count vaccuming as exersice so check it out.

To start I have cut down on the amount of pop I drink. I really like Coke. My family grew up drinking it so I really just want it plus it is my caffien for the day. I have gotten through this by buying the smaller bottles. Then when it is gone I start drinking water. for the rest of the day. There are days I may have two but the key is to not give into the big one. Do not do diet. They just replace the sugar with more salt so then you are risking high blood pressure instead. Another option if you need flavor and you have already had your pop for the day is juice or tea. I find that I like the green tea with citrus as well.

Next you don't have to stop eating out just do it less. When you go to the grocery store make sure you have a list and a plan of different meals that you can make. I even buy pizza rolls for a quick dinner. I am more likely to eat less of those than I am filling up on fries and such. Plus they are usually pretty cheap and you can find coupons for them. I do a roast in the crock pot. You put the roast some potatoes, some carrots, some celery and seasoning, put in some water and start it on low in the morning and you can go about your day and you have a healthy meal. If you do go to McDonalds think smaller. I even like to share. I buy a meal and supersize then buy my husbands sandwich then we split the fry. We both get some but not so much it is an overload. Also buy fruit and have it in the house. If it is there you will eat it. Apples have fiber in the skin so that is very helpful to your body. Make sure it something you really like and keep it where you can see it all the time. I like apples and bananas. So I keep the apples on the kitchen table and the bananas on a hanging thing so I can just walk by and grab one when the mood strikes.

I bet you are asking yourself well what about exersize. One way is cleaning your home. That gets a good work out. Walk to the playground with your kids if it is close by or push them on the swing, get on the swing yourself. I actually got some "cheater" equipment. I got the ab circle. You just make it roll and it worls your abs. It also works your arms If you live close enough walk your child to and from school. Take your dog on a walk. Jump rope it can really burn some calories and if you have a child get two and do it together. It doesn't have to be anything crazy just move for a little bit each day. Go to the mall a couple times a week and window shop the whole mall.

Yes I do take a supplement. I do not however take anything too crazy. Currently I take Mega-T Green Tea with Acai Berry. My favorite product however is called Ultra 90. I just have not ordered it in awhile. I take extra steps because I have a lot to lose and a medical condition that makes it a tad harder to lose the weight. I am not suggesting that everyone start pill popping but if you have an ok from your doctor that it will not interfer with anything then I say it doesn't hurt as long as you are reponsible.

The main thing is you move. As long as you are healthy enough. If you do have health problems ask your doctor how much you can do a day and start with half of that. If they say 10 min then start by walking up and down your hallway for 5. Fold laundry if you do not already. I live on a dead end road so I like to just walk to the end and back. It is about moveing during the day. If you normally ride the electric scooter through the store try leaning on a cart and see how far you can walk before you get tired. Small steps is the key to big success.

I am not a profesional but I am a person who has had a difficult time with weight and found something that works. It is not drastic and I am able to do this with everyday changes. I figure as I get more fit I will make more changes to fit how I am at that point but I feel like telling a big person to start running tomorrow is about as effective as getting a dog with artheritis to run like when it was a puppy. You can ask but odds are it will not happen. If you give it time and the right stuff it might slowly be able to jog, just like I hope to do by summer.

Good Luck I plan to keep writing about how it is going and if anyone wants to write in or share I would be so excited. Life is challenging but it can be lived.

Back To Business

Well things should get easier as far as posting to my blog and my Facebook businesses. I finally have a permanent laptop again. My brother in law sold me his for 150.00 so I am very excited to be able to post.

The problem before was that our other computer is in our bedroom so when my husband goes to bed I have to quit using the computer so I do not bother him. If he wants to go to bed at 9pm then I have to be done for the night ith what ever I am doing. This has also made it very hard to do school work as well. I have deadlines and if I can not use the computer then I end up turning it in late or not at all. It makes passing the class with decent grade very difficult.

It is funny how when I was younger we did not have this stuff and I did fine writing papers and stuff like that. Passing classes meant writing your papers by hand and turning them in. Now I feel like I can not accomplish things with out my computer and the crazy part is since I attend online school I really can not go to school with out it. It is just funny how much technology changes things over the years.

Well I juist wanted to let everyone know I should be back more often now. My new me for this year is going well also. I have been blessed many times already this year and I am feeling great. I plan for it to continue the rest of the year and beyond. Since I have not slept as much as usual in the last 3 nights I am now off to bed. Until next time have a great day.