So after a long weekend and a lot of emotions I am trying to make a change. I have decided I need to make some serious changes to my life. I have had so many emotional things happen and I have been let down by so many. I realized this weekend that I have given so much of myself to make others happy without worrying about the consequences it would have on me. I have put them above my own mental and physical health. It is time to stop this cycle.
It is ok to help people and consider how your actions will affect others, but at the end of the day you have to make sure you and your family are taken care of. If you let yourself bottle everything up then eventually you will finally break. This is what happened to me over the weekend. I realized how many people have used me for their benefit and then when I was no longer needed they dropped me. I was to trusting that they cared as much as I did but I was wrong.
The problem is my heart is too open. I am not saying be closed off completely but you really have to know the people you let in your circle. Make sure the people you invest your time in are investing their time back into you. Even a little bit. They may never be able to give as much as you for whatever reason, but make sure they are giving back and not just taking. If you are the only one giving in a relationship then it might be time to re-evaluate things between you.
I want everyone to live an emotionally healthy life. Please just keep an eye on who you are letting in your life. Make sure they are making you as happy as you make them. Life is give and take. Please take the time to love and live to the fullest.