My body is out to get me at this point. Everything is hurting and a lot of problems are popping up. Sadly some of them are untreatable while pregnant so if it is positive I have them then I am really not sure what is going to happen. My body will shut down slowly as the baby drains every bit of energy I have left from fighting so hard. This is very dangerous for me, not to mention my daughter here since she does have seizures. The other option is to treat things so I am better but then I risk the baby.
I am so at odds here really. I mean I have my daughter and myself to think about but how do you say that one life is more important than the other. It is a very confusing situation really. Then they say oh but it could be nothing too. Although let us run all these other tests because we really have no idea.
It is very scary to be honest. I want us all to be healthy but I have no idea what is going on and I am very concerned with the situation. I have no idea how to handle this really. I am not prepared to have to make any major choices. This pregnancy has been crazy enough with out adding more stress. I really am so at odds with this whole thing.
I am just going day by day. Trying to stay positive about the outcome. I am sure things will be ok . It is just hard not knowing what is happening, all the while being in pain all the time.