Most days are ok. Some days are really good. Some days honestly suck a whole lot. I know this is life and everyone good and bad days. The reality is how every one deals with each. I do not always have a perky disposition. I some times feel like the universe is laughing at me. Most days I can handle the days I have. Usually it is just a day. Then there are days like today.
I don't know what it is or really how to explain it to be honest. There are just days where no matter what I do or do not do I feel like I am wasting the day. Like I am just burning time until something happens. I am not sure what it means. I know I need to get out more and be around other people but sometimes even then I have this feeling so I am not even sure what it is.
I just call it the empty. It is when my mind and soul has just used up everything I have I guess. The next day it is gone and I go about my day and deal with what come but on the days the empty is here it is like the world around me has nothing else to offer me. I stare at the internet and there is nothing I want to look up or know anymore. I mean really nothing on the internet? But that is the empty, it is void of anything useful at the time.
Then tomorrow will come and I have stuff to do and the empty will be full and I will not have time to worry about anything else because I will have too much to worry about.
I know this was off topic of what we have been talking about but it was on my mind so I needed to vent it.