So I have a lot of things I need to make decisions on right now and the deadlines are quickly approaching. I have no idea what I want to do about them either. I have been praying over each of them but still I am not sure what the best decision for each situation is.
They are all very important decisions that will impact my future so I do not want to make the wrong choice for any of them. If I make the wrong decision it impacts other things and I really don't want to mess those things up.
I have to decide whether or not to keep my house or just let it go. I would love to keep it and rent it out again it was something I bought on my own and I am very proud of that but at the same time I do not want it to eat all my money. I am working on paying off bills and saving up some money and this could affect that. I am not sure that I can keep the house and be able to save money at the same time. I really want to get back on my feet and stop having to ask for help all the time. On the other hand I don't want to give up my home either. It is a really hard choice to make at this point.
I also have to make the decision of if I really want to switch branches. After today I am back to wanting to leave the branch I am at. I already have the new position but I can change my mind at any time before I actually start there. I struggled over the weekend about what to do and have continued to pray. Somethings that happened that might seem petty to some really made me feel like leaving is the right thing. Then I wait on some of the customers and realize I like them and I would love to stay and continue to work for them. It is really hard to make these choices.
Then there is whether or not I should get a lawyer to help me finalize my divorce. I have done most of it myself so this is to just get it done and help with the custody concerns. I am having a lot of problems with my about to be ex doing what he should be as a parent but I do what I am supposed to and it is ridiculous that he can just lie and do what ever he wants and my daughter continues to suffer because his selfishness. I am very much over the situation but at the same time it will be very costly to pay for this lawyer which goes back to the trying to save money part.
It is a lot to figure out and basically I have to decide by the end of this week so that puts even more pressure on me since it is half way over. I need to figure it out quick though or all the decisions will be made for me and I will just have to live with whatever happens.