This is going to be a quick post for today. Nothing went as planned and I have so much to still get done. I woke up and things started good, then it got a little awkward. Then work was weird as well so that really threw me for a loop. The rest of the day did not go as planned either so nothing worked out the way it was supposed to. I just got home like 3 hours after I was supposed to and I still do not have my divorce papers and I wanted them to be ready to file tomorrow.
So it is the big day I finally start the process and I am not really sure how I feel now. I was sad and then I was ready and now I just want to get it started so I can be done with it. I have been married to him for the last eight years and never thought it would end. Even when he told me he had gotten a girlfriend when I thought we were going to be making things stronger. That my friend was a big shock. You think that you are going to make your marriage stronger and he tells you he has a girlfriend and does not want to be with you like that anymore. It was really hard. Especially now that he puts his girlfriend before you and your child.
He only seems to want to hang out with her when he wants and is very inflexible about weekends. I am just beyond the whole situation. I just want to get it done so that I can move forward with what is best for me and my daughter. It in no way will be easy but after a year I feel it is time. I really tried to work on it but he is unwilling so time to go.