So now that I have officially announced that I am pregnant I am having backwards emotions. I am feeling overwhelmed. I am not feeling the attachment I thought I would. I am more scared than anything. I so worried about what is going to be affected and if I am going to regret this.
I am going to be a single mom again. I worry that my daughter is going to regret the new baby. What if I can't take care of the new one. I am so freaking out to tell the truth. I really have no anything right now. I know this sounds harsh but as parents we should be able to express our real feelings. Not ever pregnancy is rainbows and sprinkles.
They can be very scary and draining. Things can go wrong or like me you may have no clue that this is still possible so it is total shock. Why do we have to pretend that it is all wonderful if that is not how we feel. People keep saying that I will be more into it when it gets closer. Well what if I am not? This is a real concern of mine, What if my older daughter doesn't connect with it.
There are just so many things running in my brain. Doing it alone is much harder than the first time. I thought I would be ok but the truth is I am petrified and that is my reality.
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